compare warrior rather than loser

i'm trying not to post unhappy things in my blog... but cant avoid it. maybe this is the way ppl get relief after expressed... i alwis thinking we are the best couple in ppl's eyes, but recently i felt so scared the words of " used to it". becoz if we used to it, we might used to something that people did wrong... i cant accept it actually... used to the laziness of u? used to the 1 alwis said tired? used to the bad temper u have?? used to the one u wont start ur revision ealier?? actually i really wish to cry juznw...i went to westlake alone, dun wish to go back my room. i dunno y u alwis said i going crazy when talk about food... but do u knw i was angry whenever i ready to eat with u but i wait and wait at the end the answer is go buy yourself and buy for me too... and get scolded even i try to beg u for it. i alwis get angry whenever come to final. becoz i cant bear with the attitude u face the final.. i have been observed for so long... whenever come to final u sure got a lot of plans for game, last time u go left to dead, now fishing... i din say fishing not good. if it is ur hobby it is good to train one patient. the thing is why would u like to choose the time which rarely got ppl go fishing, mid night till morning... my gosh.... y must u choose this time... or u alrd know u din sleep for whole night then what for go to the next program in the morning, juz take a rest at home so that got enough spirit to do revision la. u can say i alwis nervous to my studies, ur frens they wont... but did u observed deeply, ur fren actually got time themselves when to study, when to play... u alwis observed the playful of ur frens but never observed the hardwork they give... cant u compare with someone who stronger than u??? then u will aim more higher... after i was under probation, u sure cant accept what i said, becoz u felt now u are stronger than me... if like this, i rather fight more even stronger to prove u shouldn't at the stage, ur abiliy is not only at this stage or even can over me a lot... man, dun alwis feel cukup makan then enough d... a man should have abit greedy for their expectation wan.. i wish to meet the u in foundation who fight for better future... if today i said all this get u felt no face or what then whatever, becoz i felt if i still remain silent even there is some mistake u did, then i'm not a good gf. good words alwis hard to listen...