the day u go bak for CNY

yesterday nite.. after ate with him , he accompanoed me in room.. and i busy to arrange all my stuff... coz 1st week of study , all my notes so messy... and its been 12.30am.. i asked him to sleep awhile but, he dun want.. whaha!! u knw y?? coz he want drink apple juice. whaha!!! haha.. then around 1.00am something he left and shown the pity face to me like kitten... haha!! then i promised him will hav our breakfast tmr b4 he leave..
today zi ying sms wake me up and tat time i feel so dizzy, bcoz not enuf sleep... then i knw today class until 7pm.. if i not enuf sleep i will suffer whole day d.. so, i cancel the date for breakfast. but i so guilty.. so after the 1 st class got 2 hours break i tot pity me eat alone d.. i tried call him see whether he left d or not.. yay!! he still sleeping.. i can eat with him...i can compensate wat i promised to him.. and i hope to see him before he go bak to hometown.. then v eat together.. after tat go bak my room to take nap awhile.. sigh, notty him kacau ... i cant sleep at all. plus, i oni left 30 minutes to rest since i promised go bak to Utar help Sue Ean to borrow book for our goup assignment.. then the kouky shown his pity kitten face again.. haha!! then v seperate in Utar d..... sob..sob... Happy Chinese New Year...dear..
well, wat to do? go to class as usual lo... class end then i went to DSA to ask about the PTPTN stuff.. wow, luckily i wrote down all the problems i face.. now i settle d.. and, i found tat.. previously, i dun like the Mr.khor staff in DSA becoz he dun like to smile.. but now i admired his serious in work. and he knw all the thing, if he not sure wat v asked, he will find out for us as much as he can.. and he give his oni 1 left copy of instruction to me tim.. hehe...

For ur information:foundation student shud choose Matriculation as the categery of foundation level wen u fill the form online..becoz there is no foundation this word for us to choose..

then after ask wat i want . v go Pengajian Malaysia lecture again.. so tired u knw!! look at the same face 3 hours leh!! my eyes are like this (@.@) the highest level of kung fu.. (left ear in, right ear out) then 6.45pm yay!! the time v all bersemangat sangat!! becoz class ended!!! whaha!! go out frm DDK hapily... but, raining heavily!! how suck my mood... tot can go pasar malam alone buy wat i want to eat. rain wor!! i walked alone to Block C, sitting down on the stair near by the ATM machine in order to rush home easily once rain getting small...taking the handphone chatting with the person accompanied me this 2 weeks... so miss u.. how gud i hav u if every wednesday after class see u sitting in the car waiting me outside block D.hmmm.... miss u now.... then wen rain getting small abit dun care d... rush home la!! fever mai fever lo!! body totaly wet but still ride the motorbike to westlake ching hwa to buy vege rice.. and go home take my bath quickly so tat i wont sick during CNY ... imagine how suffer alot delicious foods put infront u but u fever and cant eat the prawn biscuit, ya!! my favourtie u knw?!.. then eat rice in room with pity face. now oni i knw.... i very depend on u wen u around.. once u not around me i feel so lonely.. exspecialy like today i hope u beside me so much... no wonder u so worry the day without u i eat alone, eat maggie...not enuf this and tat la... my god... i muz tough!!! bleh~!!

spiderman enjoy ur CNY, wish in the new year everthing go around u smoothly and hapily~~ muack!!!

love,
Mary J@ne

dun ask me y...

dun ask me y, i knw my mind.
dun ask me y, i dunno how to lie..
dun ask me y, i tink he is the true in my life..
dun ask me y, future with him will be fine..
dun ask me y, miss kow said most accurate is 1st sight.
dun ask me y, apple n banana match to bake as a pie.
dun ask me y, prove something v nit time..
dun ask me y, come wish our life..
dun ask me y, 1 day later who knw who is the wife..
dun ask me y, i hav make up my mind..
dun ask me y, our bonding hav been binded.
pls, stop asking "y y tell me y~?"

delicious the biscuit~~ yum yum~

today i taste the biscuit which baked by kouky's mum.. wow!! so delicious u knw!! his dad come to kampar to fetch his bro go bak home town for study week. then uncle past the biscuit and lou por biscuit to kouky, haha!! now oni i knw he like to eat lou por biscuit.. whahaha!! tats the biscuit for marriage la dear.. ipoh got other type of lou por biscuit.. really hope to bring u go ipoh to find alot delicious food. toking eat food wor!! i knw alot lo!! exspecially fishball leh!! slurp~~ i miss fishball ~~~ ya!! yesterday the 2 silly us go Jeram eat Bak Kut Teh, so nice.. i seldom eat such food oso feel very gud.. i seldom eat pork lo. but it is so nice u knw... haha!!! luckily din put organ such thing inside.. wow!! the soup is so sweet~~~ haha!!
and aunty very gud in baking lo. chees cake oso knw !! wah!! how fortunate kouky u.. wat a nice western mum u hav..

how fortunate i met u...

this few day i so lost in my study... mayb juz start.... alot thing to settle.. ptptn stuffs, motor sticker, add subj document.... the more thing i nit settle. the more stress i hav.. luckily. u are here for me... the 1st day to class. i din late. but others frens late becoz of sticker... and me.. becoz got u... ur care, ur concern tat alwis giv, ur sayang, makes me feel i'm the bird fly around u. get all the care from u.. u help me to buy sticker, even u din get. u sked my class late at 7pm. u fetch me to my westlake even look after my frens. u even sked i eat alone alwis then not allow me to eat myself, darling.. i want to tell u tat.. this is really the 1st time i felt so near a ppl care me like this, really, i so happy the time u willing to eat with our classmate.. u knw? the time i eat with them i really so happy . i can tok crazy stuff. but i saw u pity cant understd wat v tok about... makes me so guilty.... sorry... but, its so funny.. the situation is totaly wat i face and wat u face wen infront of our frens.... whahah!! so nvm la finaly ...u win , i win oso. hehehe!!!

1st day feeling

i knw myself cant sleep late but i went to join David them to go supper.. and today... i so suffer... i so sleepy.. wat the lecturer taught i totaly cant absorb... so lost... so depress in the class. so less ppl, and not like the class i expected the most... then the 2nd lecture class i attend juz late abit... wen go in the class. no seats d.. i no table and sat at behind... ees blur blur cant see clearly wat lecturer tok about.. then 1 more lecture i cant absorb... sigh.... so depress... then eat with ,marcus , his cousin and kouky... after tat go the place almost belongs to two of us... Tesco...ya, v will buy the Tesco shares ... coz oni there yet still there... i guess when the jaga or tesco ppl come tok to us" adik belajar sungguh-sungguh...janganlah lepak tiap-tiap hari.." whaha!!! dunno when they will be told us. then is u!! stupid kouky!! buy pillow wor!! haha!! finally become mine coz put in my room.. the pillow oni for him to use for take nap. nah!! dun zha zha dai , i tell u!! hahahhaa!!! bleh~ whaha, then at nite d... zying and evin date us to go Tesco again!! ya!! tesco AGAIN, hear me? AGAIN!! whahaha!! then finally i dun want waste alot money d... since there is a promotion for DIGI then i change to DIGI as the song "i will follow u".. coz i dun want him to waste much the money on me d.. since v oso havent get loan.. nvm la, i got free gift wat... then we go eat dinner with zi ying.. yeah.. i really long time din chat with her d.. so touch tat she kept appreciate me and praise i'm a gud gal.. wah!!! ying jie" yim cha yim cha" whahahaha!!! wey, oni i eat with u i dare to play crazy lo. is so long i haven expess this talent d.. whahahaha!! so , dun shy to call us . its ok la. eat together got conversation is gud wat.. so, if bored juz give us a call to eat together wor..

i heard the words i wish so long~ so touch~

today is the 17 days v together d... do u knw how scared of me..? my heart like having the scar b4 , not dare to trust 100% in guy... i felt blessful v hav gone thru 17 days d... coz i scared v have less than the relationship days i taste b4.... but, u proved to me,i trust on u... u really not the 1 i met b4 tat hurted me so much....u started to build a strong confident on me... i started not underestimate myself d... thanks.... i so happy tat this few days u r alwis be with me every seconds....the 1st day i be with u i feel cant used to the everything around us.. my heart oni got worry.... i silly til tinking is this guy treat me real ? sorry tat i ever got this silly tinking... juznw... i read the blog u wrote... and u beside me while i read it... so touch.. u knw? coz u said the word i hope to heard frm u so much... ya , not u love me... is the noun tat u use to describe me.... becoz this word oni makes me feel i'm safe, and u really really hope to be with me, not juz for few days or few seconds, instead is ur whole life.... eternity... tat word really touch me after i read it.... and the silly me dunno wat to say to u at the moment u r beside me.... u really build my confident d... really ... thanks darling... i really dunno wat to say to express the feeling of me now d.... i juz hope the word u said not juz want to cheer me up for temporary ... instead is permanent....

u really the lossing puzzle i found in my life for so long .... i dunno am i the suitable puzzle board to fit u or not?? if i able to fit the shape of ur puzzle .... i hope our complete puzzle will be the wonderful, magnificent scenery in the world.. thanks... alot.... is really alot i cant even tell from my mouth... but i felt by my heart , see in my eyes... u really treat me so gud and more than i expected.... love u ~

luv,

ur puzzle board ?????

the bore yet sweet memory for us. bleh~!!

today i woke up early in the morning prepared and wait evin to fetch me to utar. then she call and ask for breakfast with ,marcus and ken. v go there din eat but crap and crap... then went to utar to take the file... v wait the stupid kuoky to come over and eat the real breakfast... wait and wait.. this ppl said another apple lock his toilet door made him cant wash his face.. so v wait him .. finaly , v beh tahan the worm in stomach sent emergency cal to us, ask kuoky to go the place we fixed.. then meet him.. eat and crap again.. after tat they said go to kuoky house to visit.. bore to sitting there.. then sat awhile they left and not allow me to leave... my god, i m so sleepy u knw.. sigh, then wait others wake up and eat.. i tot i got chance to sleep d but , stupid kuoky wana fetch me to eat with his frens.. then wat to do?? i dun want him alwis go here and there... so i follow lo.... after finish our lunch , yes!! i can go home to lie on the bed.. sleep awhile, sen hui bak.. around 6.30 pm v go eat together... haha.. this venus is so funny lo. kept tease us.. sigh.. nvm la.. then after tat fetch her go home then v go tesco by walking.. haha.. buy milk .... and go bak to kuoky house sit until 10pm go bak my home.. yeah!! our home!! i love the place silent and belongs to us.. then the notty venus ask alot funny questions even makes both of us shy.. whahaha... wat to do if u r me? challenge us wor, finaly v take her challenge lo.. my god.. no more!! no more!! no~~~~~!!!!! hehe, but i kept smiling and giggle like stupid... stupid apple.. shorty u r so cute!!! (pinch u) but love u ~ whahaha!!

thanks & sorry.... specially for u~

Dear childish Spiderman,

thanks for ....

thanks for give ur care to this fuji apple,
thanks for pour ur love to this fat ppl,
thanks for cheer me up wenever i not happy,
thanks for accept the whole of me,
thanks for accompany me wen i alone,
thanks for nonstop to build my confident,
thanks for ur understanding,
thanks for let me live in ur heart,
thanks for waste money to chat with a different centre of hp,
thanks for coax me wen i angry,
thanks for ur forgiveness wen i notty, but u so happy wor~ bleh!!
thanks for keep ur promise to give morning, gudnite kisses
thanks for everything u creat to me...

sorry for ...

sorry for i not a gud gf,
sorry for i not slim as other gf,
sorry for makes u waste alot money to chat with me,
sorry for nit time to used to ur frens,
sorry for bring inconvenient wen u find me,
sorry for notty to kik sei u,but it is so funny, bleh~
sorry for bring stress to u,
sorry for makes u stuck in between if i do,
sorry for my emo makes u nit to coax me like a kid,
sorry for i'm not a gf 100% past tat u meet in ur life....

but i will try my best to show u, yes! u found a gud Mary Jane. not for temporary, but for eternity~~ ( nah, dun said yuk ma!! i see u smiling wor~) so, this is wat i want to carve on ur face wen u be with me~ hehe~ bleh~~

love,
Mary Jane

my feeling during this few weeks

holiday gone... this few weeks holiday left the sweet and unforgettable memory to me... v went for the TB1 last trip in Penang... this was the terrible yet sweet trip i hav... coz v juz kept on went to shopping, shopping and shopping... mayb u all will said tat shopping is the funny moment for gals.. but, i hav to say... i'm not the gal tat crazy of shopping wan... haha.. how weird of me... mayb i dun want spend much tat time.... then trip ended.. 

Christmas day.... i celebrate this season in my home.. i din go anywhere... even frens invited me to go for party.... coz i juz hope to let myself rest enuf in this short holidays.... then it was the time to say gud bye to the christmas day without doing anything... but, i hav left a sweet moment and sms to a special person... (shy) after this day, i nit to face my frens and hav to kept answer "YES, i'm Mary Jane" to them.. coz a sweet memory is starting now.... i hope this time i did the rite choice , hope less hurt in my heart... frens dun ask me y... i juz knw and learnd tat in love life is cant realistic... hey u, listen to me .. the season i chose to send tat sms is showing i already get ready of wat will happen.... and now the challenge is coming... i knw i cant leave urself to face alone... and hope if there is a chance for u to improve or to prove, give it u all to face it.. dun waste time d.... and i alwis here to support u... dun notty ar~ pinch u gah~!!! hahaha!

1 more week v will start to study...dunno y, i feel so lost and afraid... i dun like the feeling tat i nit start frm zero.. i hate i nit to say "nice to meet u, I'm apple" again , y i fight to this stage seems like get ntg... i still remember how happy i m afta listen my youngest brother told i get wat i aimed b4.. YEAH!!! sis, i prove to u , i not playing in Kampar.. i got arrange my time... wen i telling my mum... i saw my mum smiling sweetly. yes, this is wat i want to carve on ur face... and i hope alwis will.....mum, i may not the gud sister, but i want to say i'm ur gud daughter.... wen u realize this notty daugther is not tat notty 2? nvm , i will not stop proving myself... coz this wat i shud b..... ya, daddy, r u smiling 2?