Happy birthday darling~~

yes, 26th September is my darling birthday.. since he will go back hometown on his birthday so v make it 1 day early..
i finshed the IMC paper with a sleepless condition... i slept 2 hours for yesterday.. its too tired for me.. is very suffer wan.. if u all knw what kind of ppl i am . then after test i went to have food with his coursemates.. then i find alot of reason to run away from kuoky to prepare for his birthday.. argh!! that moment was so hot outside.. i go 2 bake shop to look for birthday cake... not much then go others. finally.. i bought 1 chocolate cake for him.. but dunno y this sticky person kept on want to follow me.. hahaha... but i nit to take my "product " from mei fong.. haha.. a own made video for kuoky birthday... so i find another reason to let him away from me awhile.. hehe.. finally settle wat i shud do . then i faster rush to his room.. coz he sound like angry.... but sigh... do u knw i busy with settle all the thing to u..? bleh!! yes.. cant have a enuf nap... then go for steamboat...
juznw we went to 2 in 1 near by Tesco to have our celebration.. wah!! is so .. ermmm... dunno how to say.. haha.. i quite enjoy with the food la.. juz not much compared with the shop in Ipoh .. we took family photo somemore.. soooo.... fat... they all want kuoky and me to sit down when taking photo.. its really like a grandma and grandpa taking photo with all their grandchildren.. (=.=i) so ugly for me and kuoky.. haha.. i dun have the picture.. so kuoky may post it when he get it.. and all present or party photos.. haha... it is very tired to handle two gang of frens of kuoky. many unexpected affairs happen.. change and change.. i inform again and again.... so tired.. dear... u knw how i care to create both unforgetable birthday party for u d?? bleh~~ besides that, i would like to thanks mei fong, Dev, Ian, Wui Loon, Kenny, Carment, James, Zhen, Wen Sin, Kuan, Tuan Lam and Plavin ( duno spell coorectlly or not) for co-operate to create a birthday party and surprise for the Kuoky. haha.. really thanks alot.. and of coz.. to my lovely darling, kuoky..


Happy Birthday & Happy 9 months anniversary~!!!

p/s: hehe.. kuoky will responsible for upload the photos. haha..

Apple

y i cant pak tou in my family...

argh! i dunno y others can pak tou happily yet i date with secretly.... my mum asked me am i dating... shud i admit..? sigh... she ask with the tune tat makes me uncomfortable.. sometimes wish to admit and share oso cannot... y ? y other can share their love story with parents and me cannot... shud i blame my youngest borther that creaed alot of problems when dating... so now i date in a suitalbe age oso get blame.. cant bear with this stress... i juz hope my mum can understand me... can linear to me abit since i am so big d... if not a bf, ur daugther wont got ppl to look after her in a place away from home..

will i get all B... sigh.. wont d..

sigh.. not enuf time to do my section C in EMC. but i wrote all d.. juz not enuf time for me to check.. the sequence not organise... then go home refered to the marking scheme. oh my god!!! i din write in paragraph.. cham... i waste 5 bonus mark.. is bonus u knw... y i said so?? it juz for paragraphing and intro,body, conclusion.. sad.. hopefully in front the part get higher to cover it back....
dunno y my gastric strike me badly this few days... after ate.. sit while i can feel the acid tat strike my gastric... damn suffer....
3 subjects down d... still got 3 more to go... so far the paper i sked the most i can handled and had become past tense.. so i quite not much worry about the following 1... but hor.. although i said not tat worry.. but when come to the day close to it... i sure nervous and not sleep well... since there is 4 hari raya holidays... i think i will spend it wisely. whahahaha~~!!!!!

insomia and nightmare begin...

argh!! i am so stress now!!! yestd my back so pain... tot go to sleep early ok la.. but when lie on the bed i lying until 3 am still opening my eyes... i dunno y once i close my eyes there are a lot of things to pop out in my mind ... until my eyes close d still feel the force tat i close it.... so suffering... then today my roomate wake up damn early... 8 am like tat already wake up... argh!! that's the time i juz sleep dying.. she open the door close again.. open and close many times.... too bad is the toilet door when open got sound... the whole morning juz kept listen to the door sound... then i wake up i still dizzying.. wat to do... i knw i will suffering with this in the morning tats y i request to go ur room sleep ytdy.. but i wonder y u cant understd.... the bad condition i have.... sigh... i start fed up with all of this d ... dun want lose... no matter how i said, how i explain.. the stupid still dunno... caring become controling... argh! more suffer... i really think alot ytdy.... and i hate ... i juz knw u can too protective even infront of me... u sked ur right gone worry this and tat. no face or wat... sigh... fed up... i damn fed up.... if me and urself.. i knw i'm juz the second.... in ur heart i'm the second, in my heart i putting myself also the 2nd.. u ? wat status i being in ?
the cost and reward tat study in psychology... i get cost or reward..? my heart has the answer....

i juz want a nice sleep from now on...
go away devil apple.

wish me luck ! luck ! luck!!!

finally step in the week to sit for the exam .. argh!! start to feel the atmosphere d... start to stress d. i juz hope to faster come to the friday. becoz i nonit so stress becoz of the 1st 2 subjects... the 2 subj i scared the most.. sigh.. juz finish revised what i shud read.... the last two subj of IPC i no confident.. i juz hope tmr my mind can pop out what i had read.... argh!! damn stress wan u knw.... alot coursework dunno... so finally i do not have a range to let me refer ... but still good... becoz i can give it my all... anyway...


ALL the BEst Apple !!!!!!

tiring Apple

am i...?

am i very manja..?
am i very bad temper?
am i very mafan..?
am i very not caring.?
am i so posessive.?
am i...?

am i alwis keep thing inside..?
am i keep till u dun even knw who i am..?
am i keep till suffer myself u also not realize..?
but y i keep or not still get scolded...?
then nextime i shud share or keep again...?

am i like to make thing serious alwis..?
am i make u cant breath..?
am i so childish..?
am i so stubborn.?
am i ....?

sorry....
sorry.. then sorry....

unhappy @pple

so sad...

tears dropping... so sad ... y there are so many blur ppl in the world alwis nit ppl do thing obviously oni realize...
are thoughts and feelings alwis vent out then oni ppl realize wat they doing for them , think for them...?
now i realize... many things really cannot oni appear on our mind and make up like :" i thought.. i thought.... " becoz thought is oni own perception... tats not wat other ppl thought....
finally is.. u thought i wont sad...., yet i sad now.... coz u thought i'm like tat....

day 2...

i juz finish revision of wat i read yesterday... plan to read more today... hehe... alot of ppl will having their exam on Friday.. but v r not... dunno is good or not...wat i worry the most still the 1 i care... he havent start his revision.... realy so worry about him.. but he would to say , this is my style... but i so worry him.... becoz this is no longer the foundation v having now.... every sem also the important sem for us... every sem CGPA oso related to our future... internship, interview... and oso our loan.... hopefully he can perform well... i really do not hope he stay in the same level.... he can go higher... he can aim higher... guy shud be like tis rite...? is not competition.. is for our own self... wat to say..? how to say..? dunno la... maybe book worm doesnt mean anything.. but still looking for result 1st when ppl hired us rite..? i alwis believe a person who good in language sure can handle better result... i knw u r lacking a "om" the motivation "om" whahaha....
i wonder why this sem i start so early... mayb i really felt i din do much well in my others subj... i sked... i sked this sem result will be sent by faculty when v internship where company looking for.... tats y lo.. maybe is good when sometimes we afraid and worry alot rite..? so v will oni strive more for exam lo... k la. i go continue my studies 1st...


@pPle~~

is cOme to the end of the sem again..

quite boring with the uni life here... start the sem, rush for the assignment , end the sem again.. it is so bored to such a life... whenever i busy with my assignment time. i sure will think of sem break... but this kind of sem break i will be have now is no longer as wat i wish... coz i knw... my sem break will be work for housekeeping at home.. serve my elder sis lunch, think wat she eat... even she will order u a place tat not smooth to go to pack for cham ice... but now... besides my mum bicycle at home i cant think of others vehicle to substitute my work.. coz the motorbike was taken by my eld bro to Malacca not even enuf 1 month then stole by jerk... if i ride the motor back to hometown i not dare lo... haiz... i cant imagine wat will my sem break be later.... sure argue alot with my eld sis i knw... becoz of wat...? housechores lo.......
yesterday went to ipoh for walk... really very unlucky... i met the untie that i sked the most.. my god... i dunno i shud said lucky or not.. coz i not holding hand with kuoky tat time before meet them.. then my uncle saw me, point at us, wat to do?? of coz go greet them la... then saw tat kuoky lo.... they are not stupid wan la.. but my aunt din call me afterward.. i was thinking.... wat will going to happen next if i meet her nextime... but , maybe my performance still ok tat time gua... after chat while with them..my soul is like out of my body... i sked like hell... i cant concentrate of wat i shop over there... but i still got bought a watch before met them tat time.. haha, so happy to have a POLO watch.. i wish to have long long ago d... whahahah!!! so nice .. i like it.. simple yet i like... it is not like wat saw in Tesco here wan.. all same type, style... this a bit class... hehe... silver colour.. somemore, final is around the corner. my watch ald broken for 1 month yet i still surveying want to buy or not.. finally io understd soemtimes wait awhile maybe there is a good thing waiting for me... dunno why... today is saturday yet feel like sunday... is totally cant feel the happy when weekend coming... becoz once next week gone there will be my final.... arghh!!! i am so blur now...


APPLE