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Friday, November 27, 2009

i hate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate

i hate y u juz like to refer to ppl wrong habit to learn for ur life. i hate u alwis mentioned how a working life stress and after tat will smoke or wat.. ! i damn hate u mentioned this to me!!!! yes!!! i tell u 1 more time! pls knw who i am, no matter how my future life stress i also wont touch cigarette!!tehy are they, me is me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate. i hate y all ppl support yet u r the 1 who alwis said i not suits to be public relations. i knw i become weak in social.. its juz i start realize academic more important than previous. i alwis wonder am i suits in this field.. i lacking confident days after days, but y u r the 1 who alwis not give me confidence !!!??? yet want to give me more obstacle to fight with this fear, this weakness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u understand or not!!!!??? wat u knw so far !!??? u dont ever try to tell me how they do something yet can get good result.. i'm not this style.. my style to refer is normal good student. not those type!!! i have my style to study.. even if i want refer also i will choose myself.. not who u recommended. u juz likes to learn their style. y cant u learn other proper way to study then i wont so worry of u !

i nit a supporter not an obstacle..

Sunday, November 22, 2009

parents day..

yes, ladies and gentlemen, i had met kuoky's parents. haha.. finally i go thru this process.. yes, as some of u all feelings.. scary, nervous, heartbeat increase.. haha... this is he funny me... today i not dare to wake up late. becoz i knw his dad will come... i wake up, wash up. after tat a call from his mum..oh my god!! y is mum...? not dad oni meh..? yes, i compelled to face them.. as polite i not hiden anymore, went down and greets them.. when i go out and greets uncle, i saw a friendly smile happily from his dad. haha.. finally ur son's gf appear in front of u. haha... i can saw ur happiness. then a person sitting in the car.. but she never seen me before.. suddenly she come out from the car, yes" mum, this is my gf, Apple" then greets her with smile.. u knw la smile is my "sang jiu pai" ma. wahahaha...!! then after uncle stick the roadtax at the car. his mum asked eat d or not. then invite me to go eat together..

starting uncle plan to eat the "yeong taufu" but din open. so we went to "kam ling" restaurant. juz a lunch... we went to restaurant.. and oso my 1st time go kam ling to have my food although i have study here for almost 2 years.. haha... dishes?? fish, vege, chicken, fried wantan, fried rice. wat the atmosphere...? for me i think is stress. haha.. coz girl ma, u wont knw how much mark will be get from the bf parents.. haha... as polite i have to pour tea to these elderly.. but the other side, yes, the kuoky???!! he play psp with his bother.. how dare him.. !!auntie asked me "Apple, u r local here?" this is a simple question yet is abit stress for me.. u knw y? she speak english to me.. of coz i understand english.. juz that at tat moment i was thinking is next time i oso have to speak english with u..? my god... becoz i heard from kuoky before tat his mum english damn strong even stronger than uncle... but is oso a good starting for 2 of us, i quite happy that finally auntie start to observe this son's gf. haha... and is abit a weird feeling for me.. becoz never been a elderly call me APPLE, normally my uncle and auntie call my last 2 name in chinese. so if next time they got a chance to speak together i juz scared my relatives dunno who Apple is. haha... how is his parents??
hmm~~ nice, uncle treat me so good. haha... ermmm.. auntie so far i can find a way to tok to her... hehe... although she look strict.. but maybe is auntie not feeling well too.. many girls may said tat 1st impression is very important. especially dressing... yes, if i feel this part then pls scold kuoky... help me scold him... becoz he dun let me prepare.. i juz wear like normal, a batik pant and a t-shirt.. i wonder is this good ..? becoz auntie looking at me from top to bottom... hopefully they accept this true of me.. yes, i dun like make up.. haha... simple and comfortable is the best.. argh!!!!!! i wrote my soul has gone from my body in facebook. now every1 laugh at me d.. haha.. yes, when i thinking back the silly me, i will oso smile automatically... haha... bless me ..

Apple

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

emo me..

recently, i started to asking myself am i no frens...? besides the foundations frens am i no more frens?? i saw alot of my coursemate go here and there in gang how i hope i am 1 of the member inside.. i am not as silent as u think... i am active person... i wonder is it i have a bf here become my social getting smaller... my bf giving 100% freedom for me to join frens yet not i dun want to join is i'm not invited to go..... so sad... this sem i realy so emo..... so emo..... emo in still finding frens till the end of the year 1..... emo in every sem finding group... y i no fixed group... how to say not fixed group maybe i can say i got alot of frens yet do not have close 1 which can share my heart..??? am i got personality problem..? or i'm the 1 who so old become cant join ...? argh.. wish to shout out loud i am so lonely... lonely.... my darling alwis ask me to join my frens.. sigh, y dun u think mayb they tot u are here become not dare to invite me go here and there.....



lonely Apple

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

i am so stress now...

u all may says that i alwis get stress easily... but maybe i too are my result... see... tmr juz a simple japanese quiz i memorize like hell... so hard... the katakana... argh!! so stress.. maybe i too concern to get full mark in this simple test... i no confident..... this sem assignment seems easy but the due date is too near d... i have to arrange my time better to finish it...but all member never corperate to complete a assignment before.. so wats the product?? ermmm... i dunno... wont be so bad i think...