sigh... its too late..

just wake up, u knw wat time i woke up today? is 3.30pm... my god. my tme is being so messy now.. all my principle lost.... today is just thursday, saturday will be the PM exam.. my god.... feel like not much time to study geh..... where my principle to my study d???? concentrate???? although PM got 50 objective questions.. but objective question alwis the 1 i die fast.... ish!!!! i start to worry d... i want my time back.... my room.... sob...sob....

1 subject down.

finally i have started my 1st paper.. yesterday i very relax , dunno y.. not fully prepared la. but this is my 1st time that i dare to go yum cha and th next day got exam... maybe i have prepared wat i shud be ... but went home .. i rewrite the essay again.. then finally i do this and that 5 am oni then i start to sleep.. recently i have been train sleep at 5 am d.. not study.. is i went to yum cha come back still full not dare to sleep.. plus, the weather here really torture me recently ... luckily, today rain d!!!!. so windy now. ermmm... today i just slept for 3 and 1/2 hours then attend to exam hall d.. luuckily, what i want did pop out in the exam answer sheet. whahah!!. hopefully can get a B at least lo.. the next paper will be Pengajian Malaysia.. this is 1 of the paper i sked the most... tok about history this kind of thing... then the history will be changed when after answer my paper.. hahaha!!.
today is oso zying's birthday. dear my best fren. HAPPY BIRTHDAY and may all your dreams come true!! this is important rite?? whahah! muakz~~ xoxoxoxoxo....

luv,
Apple

study week no mood study

i have been come back from Ipoh for four days. but Kampar is so hot, i really no mood to study at all... erm... dunno y maybe the time still not nearer to the exam date i will not feel the excited. whahaha... is not i fully prepared, is i still havent doing any preparation.. whahaha... maybe i feel like the timetable for the exam is having enuf time time for the preparation gua... cant imagine i already finish my 1st sem in year 1.. this sem really so tired... going back to hometown oso less d.. really wish to have a long holiday to rest my brain... and body.. ermm... wat am i doing ?? havent exam already wana to holiday... alalalala~~~

dunno wat to do.

ermmm... actually i dunno wat to write... this few days my self-esteem become more and more low.. wenever i get bak the confident little bit... happy again.. sure something pull me down again... ish...! Utar having a new law which v nit to arrange our time table by own in the next sem... ermmm... dunno is it a gud thing or bad thing... bad thing have to spend time to arrange it before final, and v may not same class with our frens . gud thing?? can said v choose to be with the frens v want in the assignment group. or the frens v wish to join gua. yet very mafan. final is gonna coming soon... feel like so tough to me compare with lastime.. this time i feel how important of every subjects i am taking... alot of subjects i no confidents...
is this world fair??? i ever received a comment from other ppl, she said world is unfair. social life is more terrible.. now i realize.. really unfair.. unless i fight till very tough.. who is my enemy... myself.. i wish i can win myself.. the problem now is ... i dunno wat target i shud set for myself... become i choose to compare and contrast no matter in where... finally i even lost myself... lost the lower target i set.... sigh....

headache whole day ,my 1st own story book.

sigh.... today from afternoon until now, i having headache... ish!! so suffer u knw.. then kuoky come back from KL. Alamak, he got FLU... so sked infected lo.. but really so touch wood lo. really infected d..... after morning PR class.. v met Marcus in the cross junction. then v date to have our breakfast together.... crap and crap then they nit to go class... i rest a while then went to group discussion... tired u knw.... after that come bak sleep again then start to headache d.. til now still having it..
hehe, i got the book which bought by kouky's cousin d, i so happy the open and see. "my god" so many words... honestly, i really seldom read story book, thats y i read book very slow ... tink this is the time to train myself d. since they treat me and wana help with sincere , then i accept it and oso wont waste it.. btw, the book name" little women". look familiar that i may seen before. haha... u knw how many story in the this thin little book? is 23 stories ar!!! haha.. since sembreak coming soon , so this is the tme that i nit to improve my english d.. ermmm... although this is wat i uses to do wen i was in secondary skol... wen tok about holidays.. i really sked.. coz the 1 st day of the holiday my dad must be said" holidays read story book and learn some new vocabulary. so, it become a must d.. wenever holiday come i sure took a book copy down the words then find meaning after that test myself.. so wen come to the end of holidays quite alot words i learn oso. juz that this time i nit to read a book which contain alot alot alot words.... scary.... but.. my heart is happy. coz i'm not oni get love and care from kuoky but oso from his relatives.kekekekekekek~~~!!!! "little women" here i come..
sometimes feel quite guity. coz my home oso got a lot such story book which placed in the cupboard but i seldom read.. wah, really alot u knw... all given by my 2nd aunt... whole set of children "DIsney" story.. and many mystery that kind of story books... my home money not much. but if tok about books i can said i am rich of books at home.

New

hey frens, this is the new look of my blogskin.. dunno i like or not actually.... i juz feel like wana change something new.. but my heart is still the same... juz like how i loving and stuborn in love...
actually i am waiting a sms from u while i choosing my new blogskin... but i din received from u.. nah, jangan sombong k. bleh!!!!!!!!!!!~
wen i choosing the layouts, i feel like alot i dun like.. but wen i feel that's the 1 i want , but becoz of my greedy and concept "i will find a better 1" finally i cant find bak the nice blogger layout d.. in this little affair i even realize "when found the true d, dun simply release, dun greedy." ya, this wat i holding in my relationship now. hehe... after chat with a fren, i feel better d. coz i knw wat a guy is.. whahaha!!!
dun worry dear, dun tink bukan-bukan like me.our heart are same. which is loving each other very much. bleh~ (dun look others) is u la!!~.
frens, in the process i choosing the layout . i found sometimes wat i want but wen apply to me which is not suitable. becoz i finding a blogskin which can easier my frens to read thru.. so, how was it now? nice and comfort to read or not? if not, leave me comment, then i change a better 1. hehe..
dunno y , today i lost my appetite. nw i knw.. our mood will really makes ppl lost of appetite.. but y i suddenly no mood d??? i wonder too... mayb.... k la, tmr 8am class. got to sleep d... so tired .... darling...... sigh... nites... stupid piggy. bleh!!

luv,
Mary

tired weekend

today is sunday, dunno y i alwis get tired easily.. i start to tink am i kena diabetic.?? maybe get fat and chubby d... sadz.... this is call stress or happy?? ppl said stress doesn't oni causes thin yet will oso causes fat.. ish!! u lo. mayb spiderman alwis bring me eat supper..
my mum birthday coming soon, but the day she birthday. i will having exam. so yesterday i bring her to celebrated . haha, i fetched her to "my point" finally i can make sure the name d is "my point not The point" whahaha!!!! silly me, ermm.. this restaurant makes me think back how i celebrated my 1st valentine day with my love 1. kekekekeke!! +p since my youngest brother go eat steamboat then sis have to dating so, yay!! save!! i treat mum enuf. haha, ermmm.... v tried the new chop which i din eat lastime . my chop got speggeti with chicken chop, while my mum 1 got small mushroom... ermmm... since my hp cant took photo .. so , i cant show u all wat v have eat. really so full!! luek!! even my mum oso said so full!!! gud gud gud !! becoz in my mum concept. much is worth. whahahah!!! luckily, it was delicious... haha, mum, this is how i celebrated ur birthday 1st. pls, wrote down i did treat u ar. bleh~~~ then i went to Jusco and shop with my mum.. so tired u knw... no1 help me drive...
final exam coming soon... dunno wat will i get this time... i juz knw that before i goin to my final i did fall down deeply, even cried for 2 times becoz my studies... this is 1st time i ever been really stress till cried. hopefully.... my wish come true.

Dear, u r the 1 i worry the most besides my study. let's give it our all for our study k~? v fight together !! all the Best to u in the final ~ muack! its time to study d.

luv,
Apple

my heart is such like million of needles pierce through it.

i am not happy..... i knw i have been very fortunate to meet u.... dunno y.. this week v like more argue d.. or shouldn't say argue.. mayb v have different point of view....... whenever v argue for 1 simple thing ... ya, u will still coax me... and i knw ur heart is true to me.... but.... i dunno y .... my heart start to afraid... afraid of wat...? tink u also understand.... ya... cant deny that i have put alot into this relationship d.. cant even retreat...... instead step even more deeper... and mayb due to this i very care of little tiny thing that v going thru.... even... u tok abit loudly to me i will oso tink that u scolding me..... i knw do u ntg wrong sometimes.... u have tolerance in this relationship.... yet.... i cant control my bad temper.... even wat u tink on last few days ago it was oso wat i afraid the more... i knw u and me also worrying the same thing... even v can tinking till dropping tears.... like u did .... u knw? i am so scared.... i really so scared....... although i knw u wont do that to me... yet i cant stopping myself not to think that question.... not i no confidence on u..... i trust u .. but i am gal... sure will tink bukan-bukan.... can u make me stop tinking that silly question...?? u knw.. wen i knw u asking urself that question i already started to tink nonsense till today d... i really so afraid ......... see, how important u r now even makes me crying wen typing this blog...... becoz of wat?? coz i really so care and scared....... sob....sob..... i hate this week of wat v have been thru....... becoz this week was the week that v have been go thru so long since now which v have many different opinion ....
Apple here to say SORRY OF MY BAD TEMPER ALWIS.

silly MARY JANE

suck mood !!

i dunno how to describe wat in my heart now. i am damn so fucking bad bad mood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its seem slike a big gas stuck in my throat where i which to shout out loudly!!!!!!!!!!!! so tired !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so tired!!!!!!!!! feel like my mind got a lot problem i wish to tell yet dunno how to tell.. i wish go yum cha badly now. but kuoky damn tired coz this evening he drove to Ipoh again to visit David. if makan to make me happy. later kuoky suffer i rather choose not to go out d. wat person he is , kena hujan little will fall sick .more faster than me. i am so bad mood now. as i said dun come kacau me when i got period. if not u r 1 of the victim let me fuck u damn badly. WWH, i am so mang zang u knw !!!??? i want shout d!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid right eye, i tell u stop "jumping"!!!!!! u made me v very worry u knw!!! is it anything will happen?? pls la, get off from me!!!!!
................sigh................... luckily, din get barred .

week 13

is already step to week 13... i dunno y this sem fast like hell... i feel like i havent absorp all wat lecturer taught to us.... i nvr tasted i nit to present until week 14.... it is really a tough life wen the 1st day i started my degree life... i juz get my ptptn ... feel like alot of things i need to buy... sigh... coz last time i alwis said wait ptptn 1st... but cant imagine that wen the ptptn loan cm.. my god , is alot i nit to buy.... tok about tis loan quite suck!!! wait almoz 3 moths oni get it... c.. my 1st sem almoz finished tim ar... this sem i got 4 subject counting in CGPA. but pengajian Malaysia not include yet related in my PTPTN stuff... haiz... this the matter i afraid the most.. since i knw no matter how i study i oso wont get highest mark in history such subject.. yet..i wont easily to give up not till the ending point.. this is the Apple who alike with her dad. kekekekeke!!! tmr PR presentation d... hopefully i can handle it well and get back all the marks i lost in midterm lo... dad, bless me ar. hehe... bleh.... tired lo.. nitez~~~~

go Ipoh watch movie..

today, kuoky so desperate to watch movie in cinema.. in the afternoon he wish to watch Shinjuku incident but.....!!! he give up d to watch d. coz mandarine version. whahaha!! then nvm lo. rest awhile in the room. then received a msg from ting yi siad that ptptn fund bank in d. yeah!!! i quickly go public bank and check. i told kuoky if really get ptptn then tonite go watch movie.. hehe. then i lead him to ipoh to a place which very famous fishball noodle. haha.. finally i got chance to let him taste y i so love fishball in Ipoh d.. besides, there is oso a local stall famous in beef soup noodles.. so , of coz let him taste la. hehe...
after that, go to jusco to see wat movie to watch at 1st, v give up to watch d.. but when i seek for my stuff, the gan jeong kuoky kept calling me by asking this and that. aiya dear, up to u la. i seldom watch in cinema oso. then go met him in outside the cinema . haha. wait about 45min oni start the movie. ya, the movie v watch is "fast and furious 4" hehe... this is the 1st time i go cinema watch movie with him since v date till now.. then... watch and watch ... not bad leh!! hehe... then after the movie finished v went to McD to eat supper. then end the journey tonite.
recently, i really found i very "hang fuk" even "fat fuk". u lo!! bring me here and there to eat... my god........ fat d "ga mm cuk " sob... sob... then u shud take the resposibility d... blehhhhh~~~~ whahaha!! this is called "set lunch" in love life... whahahahahaha!!!!!
sleepy...... its time to sleep d.. tmr got class some more... sigh...

luv,
Apple

my birthday

its been long time i din update my blog.. becoz recently i busy with my assignment, and many... hmm.. tok about my birthday this year.. then i shud start on 30th night..

30th March..

after the discusssion.. my group members said stay while to chit chat.. then i ma follow lo.. but after tat i said wana go home d.. they luk lik very "gan jeong" ...very funny is the Evin.. kept play the door and light.. actually can guess la. hehe... the light suddenly off.. a gang of my foundation best frens come in.. wow!! so surprice !! 1more surprice is y the spiderman taking the cake too?? whahaha!! then did like wat i birthday gal shud do every year lo..make wish, blow candle.. then of tease by them lo. use mouth to bite the candle out from the cake. suddenly a handpushed from behind. MY GOD!!! kena d!!! is Zi Ying.. notty la u. then seperate the cake lo. wow!! i would like to said i love the cake very much , coz cookies flavour. it is a cheese cake . yum ~yum~ btw thanks for Evin bought a delicious cake in this party. ermmm.... since i havent get the picture from my fren i cant share wat happening in Yong Ren's house tat nite. here i would like to thanks Evin, Zi ying, yong ren, sue ean, poh yee, kean tat, wenny, wen jye, ken,venus and oso the silly spiderman join wat their plan lo.. bleh~~ after the party every1 go home and i go home with kuoky , but kuoky said he got something to discuss with frens.. then i alone in hostel..
until 11.30pm i start to sleepy d.. since tat day i din take nap at all. then sent mg to kuoky said i sleepy. but the stupid kouky said he is having the supper d. walao, then wat to do let him be lo. plus, i knw something weird tat nite.. coz this fellow nvr dare to do this to me since i did asked got yum cha or not 1st... ceh. whahah!!!

31st March...

then wait till 12.35am.. i beh tahan d.. coz really sooooooooooooooooo sleepy.... then sent a msg to him finish yum cha then come coz i nit to sleep d.. then after tat i go toilet to chage my sleeping costume.. but i heard DEV and IAN sound.. so i din change my cloth d.. bleh!!! then the silly spiderman tot he giving surprise. then actually all his plan is expected.. whaha!! he even use a so lame lie to me said he forgot to bring key wor.. whahahaha!! so lame!!! k lo, then i ma match his lame plan lo. bleh~~~~~ anyway.. wen i went downstair.. whahaha!!! DEV gang come out and taking a fruit cake sang birthday song .. whaha.. this can consider i listen to birthday 2 times in a nite. then still the same la. blow candle and so on.. then DEV suddenly teased kuoky and said walao no present pula. ceh... whahah!! then i observe his reaction whaha!!. going to Dev's behind taking a big red plastic bag with Esprit brand... wow! than they demand for picture. silly us, took like miss world get award on the stage. bleh~~ then go to mamak to eat the cake lo.. wahahaha!! u knw ghany's boss treat me tat day. wen v wana pay he asked who birthday tonite. i belanja her. whaha!! yeah!! free maggie goreng and teh O ice limau. kekekeke~~



this is the fruit cake which kuoky consider so long before he buy.. whaha~

this the bag i tot got bra inside (=.=")

luckily is a bag! whahaha!! silly me (^.^)


1st April


a tired day... 2 presentations... then went bak to hostel prepared for my ipoh journey.. hehehe.. actually plan to eat steamboat.. finally left me and kuoky go and eat Kenny Roger's roaster chicken hehe.. then walk and walk.. bought Big Apple a box of 12 donuts. hehe.. this 1 my 1st time i taste Big Apple donuts. so delicious!!! many flavour v bought.. then go bak to Kampar asked Dev them to yum cha eat donuts together.. hehe.. after yum cha go bak hostel to watch the ending episode of the movie.. so.. ladies and gentleman, this how i celebrated my birthday in 3 days 2 nites. whahahaha!!!

hehe, this the picture b4 going to Ipoh. whahaha!!


this the Big Apple donuts tat Kuoky bought