Kampar so hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As u all knw, i left last paper which is EP. i havent finish my studies now.. so hot.. Kampar is so hot!!! i cant memorize and stuck in chapter 9, i have left 2 more chapter then i can said gud bye d.. but.... its hard to memorize leh!!!!!!!!!. i really so angry now... wish to home soon.. so scold my youngest bro... while i studying, my mind just appear how my bro bad jobs. really wish to slap kau kau him.. nvr wake up.. lets see i go home wat u will get from me if u still the same stupid like hell!!!. ish!!!! geram betul ni!!!!! so hot .... yeah!!! monday soon.!! yeah!!! i can go home treat them to eat steamboat.. ermm.. steamboat or chops leh??? let them choose la, still the spending is almost the same oso.. hehe... pls, remind me to pay my student bill ar!! i really keep on forgot leh... ish!!!

no mood suddenly

suddenly, i very no mood.. wish to cry... my sensitive or my emotional problem...?? i really not happy now... trying to listen to music... haiz.. am i the bird which fly againt the group?? when i become like this....??? fly.... flying....

insomia.... dear, i'm so afraid...

i have started to sleep from this morning 8am... i am so afraid at nite... although i was dizzy... i wish to study but dizzy... so give uo to study d... slept until 4.30 pm something.. i hate my time become so messy... i dunno how to arrange it back with this scary condition... 1 more paper to go.. i wish that day can faster come to me.. then i pack all my stuff then go back have a nice holiday... so bad my sis told me they have went to celebrate mother's day yesterday d... at Kimbarly again.. but i not around... my eldest bro come back d.. today his frens come to visit and stay in my house.. i wish to go back.. as soon as possible... actually i plan to go home since thursday... but i knw.. go home sure cant study... the day is changing dark again... i tink i will going to insomia again.. dear... so miss u.... i so afraid in here.. the house is so quiet.... i dun like this... all foundation students went back d... left me and the room beside... so silent.. so dangerous... so sked.... i hate here... i want go home.... faster come the test... i hate here from now.... y not finish early.. become v left 2 weeks + to rest oni... i hate.....

luv,
lonely Apple

is it the reason which is last paper??

i really blur now.. i plan to study now.. yet.. i writing my blog... today i slept until evening... but.. i still so blur now... i feel like not dare to study in the mid nite... the room is hot... i open the side window.. my table exactly opposite the other row of room.. so dark.. i afraid to look at there.. seeing my shwdow blurry.. now i understand.. i shud appreciate the nite with u... then i not afraid to study at mid nite... now.. alot ppl going back becoz they have finished final.. luckily the rrom beside me end exam with in the same day.. the house not noisy like before... i so afraid.. i knw i have too depending on u d.. got insects, u there.. got shocked , u there.. my god... shud i sing "without u " this song??? whahaha!!!.. i start dizzy d... see.. the day without u i cant stand long during mid nite... how fortune i got u wen i study until mid nite and there is a person deliver supper to me... get stress go yum cha with me.. although this subject no essay.. but juznow i saw is alot to memorize... dunno wat i aim can achieve or not.. i think this subject really the strong subject to pull up my CGPA... PR , after i recall back... i realized i did miss alot mark.... haiz... not much expectation on it , just hope that it could pass then is enuf... and PM... walao eh!! now start to sked d... dunno y.. this sem i started to put high expectation on my CGPA... is it called i have been mature?? no, its juz that i feel if i din get the expectation means i'm weak... its is a must.. and at this level v shud get 3.0 above... 2nd class honour... is juz 3.0 ...i wonder y foundation i couldnt get it.. it is so normal.. y shud proud off?? get 1st class honour then oni consider geng!!. is this level now v hav already how far v can reach oni?? no... its not... v can do it better... even more than that .... aim high.. get high.. although i used to say
"no dream is too high, no journey is too far"... this phare is for those who alwis dream so high then oni can use... so that they wont stress themselve.. but .. do i ???
now i knw y this phare coming out from a doctor's mouth... coz they alwis dream too high..

I swear~!!!!

DEAR : SPidermaN~

I swear ! 我发誓！
By the moon & the stars in the skies.当着天上的星星月亮
And I swear ! 我发誓！
Like the shadow that's by Ur side.如同守候你的背影
I see the questions in Ur eyes.我看见你眼中闪烁着疑问
I know what's weighing on Ur mind.也听见你心中的忐忑不安
U can B sure I know my part.你可以安心,我很清楚我的脚本
'Cause I'll stand beside U through the years.在往后共渡的岁月里
U'll only cry those happy tears.你只会因为喜悦而流泪
And though I'd make mistakes.即使我偶尔会犯错
I'll never break Ur heart.也不会让你心碎

And I swear ! 我发誓！
By the moon & the stars in the skies.当着天上的星星月亮
I'll be there.我必在你左右
I swear ! 我发誓！
Like the shadow that's by Ur side.如同守候你的背影
I'll be there.我必在你左右
For better or worse.无论丰腴困厄
Till death do us part.至死不渝
I'll love U with every beat of my heart!我用我每个心跳爱你
I swear ! 我发誓！

I gove U everything I can.我愿给你一切我所能给的
I'll build Ur dreams with these two hands.用双手为你筑梦
We'll hang some memories on the walls.将最美好的回忆挂在墙上
And when(And when)Just the two of us are there.当你我独处
U won't have 2 ask if I'd still care.你不在对我的爱存疑
'Cos as the time turns the page.任时光荏苒
My love won't age at all.我的爱永不老去

And I swear(I swear)! 我发誓！
By the moon & the stars in the skies.当着天上的星星月亮
I'll be there.我必在你左右
I'll be there.我必在你左右

I swear(And I swear)! 我发誓！
Like the shadow that's by Ur side.如同守候你的背影
I'll be there.我必在你左右
I'll be there.我必在你左右
For better or worse.无论丰腴困厄
Till death do us part.至死不渝
I'll love U with every beat of my heart!我用我每个心跳爱你
And I swear ! 我发誓！

I Swear(I swear)! 我发誓！
By the moon & the stars in the skies.当着天上的星星月亮
I'll be there.我必在你左右
I'll be there.我必在你左右
Like the shadow that's by Ur side.如同守候你的背影
And I swear ! 我发誓！
I'll be there.我必在你左右
I'll be there.我必在你左右
For better or worse.无论丰腴困厄
Better Or Worse.丰腴困厄
Till death do us part.至死不渝
Oh ! No ! 哦,不！
I'll love U with every single beat of my heart.我用我每个心跳爱你！
And I swear,I swear,I Swear ! 我发誓！

LUV,
mARY jAne

i have finished my PR paper with tiring body

finally i have finished my PR paper.. ermm... can answer lo... i am so tired yesterday.. i force yself to finish the revision as soon as possible... but i left 1 chapter.. then today almost over slept luckily 7am i woke up d.. can read the oni left chapter... silly me, last nite i reading then look at the calender , so silly !! i tot i got 2 days in between the last paper.. is not! is containing 3 days to read!!. god bless me!!. today i can totally rest for recovering my body. my psychology's frens they finished the paper today d... i wish to go home.. what am i going to do in saturday without kuoky to accompany me to yum cha!!!??? the will very boring lo!!! then i started to sleep early no mid nite revision lo?? watever la. the last paper is the subject i put alot expectation on it , wish to get B above .. ermmm.... hopefully lo.... is it impossible for a computer illiterate to answer paper with computer stuff ??? so sui my eldest bro, said " y a computer illiterate get high mark in midterm?? is it typing words oni??!!?" very sui is it??? haha!! but i oso wonder y midterm i score that mark too.. hehehe.... gud luck gua.. enuf sleep is very important .. i found that if i not enuf sleep , what i study eaqually to zero.. becoz i really cant pop out during the examination ... so, i got my body condition d... which is muz rest no matter how far i could go!!.

luv,
sick Apple

i am not happy... i'm sick.........

thursaday will be my PR paper... this the subject i sked the most... yet... today woke up, i feel no energy... feel cold... wenever i go.... i started to sick d... now.... i feel my body so warm.... but environment so cold.... i took 2 tables of panadol justnw d....
i am unhapy now.. i dunno how to decribe my feeling now.... so sad.... everytimes the same i get... wish to cry out loud... maybe today i slept for so long d.. now feel like very energitic..... but, i do not wish to study d.. coz if i study now, i'm sure i will fall down.. tmr then i will be no more energy to study .... i dun want fail this subject... i dun want see lecturer anymore.... so stress......... y alwis i wana fall sick kuoky sure have to go home ...??? sigh....................................................

PM subject down.

finally, i have been finish my PM paper... this paper really suck all my energy... becoz the day before exam.. i almoz din sleep... nvr try before.. and never try again.. so suffer the whole day.... in the mid nite. i almoz pengsan.... ultimately... din come out wat i study in essay part.... ish!!! geram betul....! once finished the test.. i quickly go pack my food and eat ... then i start to rest... i have slept for 5 or 6 hours in the evening...... then went to eat my dinner straight away.. recently my time really become so messy... my mind oso.... hey ladies and gentlemen, i have started to tire again... i am so tired...... wish to finish all my subjects as soon as possible... then take a long long break.... i am so tired.... its mentally and physically.... damn tired.... luckily.... all this while got u beside me to support me .... if not i wont be got the strong will power to study in the mid nite.... thanks kuoky~ muack! all the best for ur exam too!!..