something bad i can feel...

today went to utar.. then pass thru the guard house. the guard block me. and told me the sticker cant use d.. haiz... luckily he let me in.. coz i told him i buy 1 year ... then after class i wen to exchanged back wat i shud get.. the sticker become red colour d... i really so sked next year i cant get sticker... i asked the staff, he said next year no more 1 year sticker d.. have to apply every semester.. if bad luck how? argh!! i cant imagine the day no sticker and nit to travel over the gate at eastlake.. if i got car no problem.. but motobike leh.. if rain i still go in to utar ... coz my body sure wet compare to car... tats y i understand for those who cant get sticker they may pray for rain everyday in order to go in the Utar without block by the guard... sigh... i really so scared this will happen to me.... hopefully daddy really blessing me every year so that i no more obstacle for getting the sticker.. y i sared..? becoz have to fight with car driver... argh!! if i miss the chance to apply. then die lo.!!!

unhappy... y i seems like no more frens d...

these few days i was thinking y i seems like no more frens d... how to say?? frens i got alot... but i seems like cant find a fren to share my heart... 1st week of study.. i looking around to find ppl to group with me in the assignment.. i hate this feel... seems so pity.. i wish i can have a fixed group of assignment partners.. even i not there they will automatically reserve a place for me... but.... i dun have this kind of group.... i dun like every assignment mixed with all different ppl... becoz i nit to match different group timetable to discuss my assignments... but this concept not many ppl realize of it... and non stop of choosing the best member being in their group... maybe this is human instinct.. becoz of this happened.. i seems like so pity... become being choose by others , follow ppl... recently i am not happy... i start realizing i do not have the best frens as wat i had in foundation... i dun have the gang as wat foundation i had... i go here and there... seek and look around.... yes... i am the 1 who very pity ... this is my conclusion..... sometimes i really wish to says... i am not those kind got bf no more frens 1... when i sitting in the same restaurant met my coursemate.... yet my heart is wishing i am of the member in the coursemate's table... sob... sob..... who knw....? oni my darling knw.....