after my impromptu speech

wake up early in the morning then attend to class to sit for my communication skill mid term test. a test which oni take 30 min.. sigh... wat a stupid me stress about this subject in yesterday nite.. but evin them went yum cha until 4am tim.. finaly the test is really easy... nvm la. then today is my turn to speak in front of my PR and JR frens.. the title is "if u have oni 1 child which gender do u choose? i chose female.. whaha.. quite alot time for me to prepare this speech becoz is volunteer to for us to speak without according the number.. but today muz be finish the speech... hmmm... although i got abit nervous...but finally it go smoothly... as my sis asked me "u will sked to speak infront of large crowd of audience ?" ya, really .. i really not tat sked .. lastime in my secondary skol.. the large number of audience the more i perform well... dunno y? maybe tat moment i were standing in between of my choir group tats y i not sked .. now i nit to face myself... well... but i still believe. i can do well like lastime.. my sis is rite..she found tat i not like the Apple lastime who dare to face and courage to settle all affairs .. i really become weak d.. i shudnt like this d... i shud be the AI PING who like in secondary skol.. all juniors respect and admire... the student who very active in teacher's eyes.. Apple, dun retreat d.. is time to show ur talent and attack, fight for urself d... u r not the weak gal... be tough !! go fight la!! ladiies and gentleman, SHOW TIME!! whahahahah!!!
my lecturer told us, to get hire in a big PR firm CGPA muz 3.5 above.. although is quite hard for me. but.... who knw??? ya!! dad, i will prove to u tat u really have a daughter tat can makes u proud of. becoz... i'm ur offspring.. one of the offspring of Family YAU. i m a perfect sperm ever swim fastest to born into this world !!! so?? y i cant??!! yeah!!

after revision

tmr will be my electronic publishing subject midterm. i juz finished my revision.. dunno y, i din feel stress about this subject.. mayb i got enuf time for me to finish my revision. tok about the subject i sked the most will be my main course "PR"... i quite upset in the lecture class... i oni accepted 1/2 of wat lecturer taught in every lecture class ... u knw y? coz recently my lecturer use notes to teach.. no slide during the lesson.. v juz listen and c our notes.. but sometimes she give alots examples but i tot she read wat v got in the notes.. coz she kept look at the her notes.. but our notes is too simple d... sometimes i cant catch up where she go thru tim...her notes full with her hand writing.. frens, do u tink i shud suggest and tell her my problem in class to my lecturer?? so tat she cant improve in teaching skill and me oso improve in my learning lesson.. coz human prefer see picture or juz see rather than listen ma...for example, u prefer watch movie or listen movie??? this is the point lo.. i juz hope i got slide to follow.. but i sked after i tell the problem the lecturer cant accept suggestion from student.... sigh.... then the following weeks iwill be very pity d.
tmr will be my 1st midterm paper in my degree 1st sem 1st year.. this year although i busy but hopefully i can busy with meaningful at the end of semester... dunno y i feel i still got a big gap to achieve my ambition...
watever la,
NO DREAM IS TOO HIGH, NO JOURNEY IS TOO FAR~

all the best in the exam ya~ hehe~

luv,
tiring Apple

my burden release half .

early in the morning i wen to the PR class, 1 of my fren told me the ptptn can check to c wheter approve d or not .. but i not dare to check... so struggle in the class bear with my course... cant concentrated... finaly class end and i got the chance to check in my room d.. yeah!! its approved d!! but... alot document nit us to sign and nit to go bak hometown let my mum to sign for it.. sigh.... but the fund will oni come after v sign our document..and pass up. it may takes 10days to work... sign... and recently the assignemnt and midterm makes me cant go bak home town... 9/3 will be a pulic holiday... hopefully i got the chance to go home eat the fishball i miss!!!!!! arghhhhh!!!!! fishball!! why kampar fishball not delicious as ipoh there?? once put in mouth already knw the fishball is pack in plastic tat kind d. not hand made wan... this is call "guo ma" punya fishball... tok about fishball i really got the skill to see. sigh... hard to explain la. come ipoh to eat. u will knw how different the fishball u eat compare with here.. dunno y in Kampar here everywhere oso got 'pan mee' to eat. but hard to find nice fishball, but in ipoh everywhere oso is nice fishball noodle yet hard to find nice pan mee with belanca chili. this is wat v can see how different local food in different place.. my god!!! i wish to eat fishball now d!!! sob..sob.... i miss my hometown... is almoz 1 month i din go home d... even from my youngest bro sem break till he end the sem break..

i dunno how to start

i dunno how to settle the assignment i have now... all due date is juz around the corner.. i really dunno which to start and how to start... and the mid term.... so pack... the date is so pack... i very unhappy now.... wat i planned didn't go as i wish... i plan to study ... alot... but... sigh.....i dun like last minute to do my work.. yet.... like the mid term... i alwis score better if i did last minute... if i get ready enuf instead lower than my expectation... but.. i knw this is not gud tat i do last minute ... i miss home town so much.. but almost all replacement class set in saturday.. now even worst.. saturday i got to go utar b4 8am.. and the 3 following weeks my replacement in saturday is until 4pm......... i want go home................ every time i skip the class oso a guilty to me but... today... i did it again.... the problem is my assignment is work with JR frens.... i so sad heard this news u knw... dunno how to discuss nextime d.....
ptptn wtf so slow.... y the god alwis challenge me ......... wen oni i stop to busy in this year.... is it the real tat rabbit zodiac will be busy the whole year..??? i so tired.. my soul so tired.....

is my careless... sorry...

sigh... kuoky finaly sick badly d... monday he fever.. after help him wipe with wet towel and put cool fever he din fever d.. but yesterday he start to sore throat, then catch cold fever d.. he shivering wen i awake ... cover whole body with blanket, then in the morning i found he fever and damn warm his body.. so, today i din attended to class and bring him to see doctor.. sigh... i shud blame myself not take care of him well.. yesterday even go supper but he din eat roti canai tat kind of food la.. i shud realize he start to selsema shud be rest earlier but still went for supper.. sigh.. my wrong... and now... a patient in my room.. no shud be 2 patients. coz i already infected selsema as i knw my immune system is damn low for flu... i tot the chinese herb can cool his body tats y i bought the "yeong sam so" to heat in the water.. but i found , mayb the yeong sam very strong to cool body become he got cough oso.. sigh... wats sick he get now??? and ladies and gentlemen, he temperature is 39'C it is consider so warm d....... sigh... quite worry about him la.. so, hav to pay more attention at nite.. later catch cold again....
wey, dun notty leh.. u have to eat porridge this few days, no objection!!

Valentine's day

toking about this celebration ... well quite a long story..
i shud start from 13th FEB.. hmm.. tat nite i went to group discussion until 11.45pm.. i was tinking it is too late for me to make a card d... then after finished the discussion.. the kuoky kept said want find me... but, i persisting not allow him to find me ... coz.... i got no time to decorate a valentine's card... so, finaly i knw he is sad tat i not allow him to find me and i said i want do a "important assignment".. ya, i got the chance to complete this important assignment d...well, in the process i was so down.. coz wat i want to creat finaly the product turn out to not wat i expected.. but.. for sure.. i m used my sincere heart to creat a special card for him.. as the situation i hav now not allow me to spend much... wat to do... i tot buy a box of chocolate to put the card inside wan.. but... i follow the inflation occured recently.. and i finish to make the card at 3.30am .. actually i quite disappointed about my design wan.. sorry.. if so lame....
the other day, 14th... i suddenly pop out an idea ... i really hope he can eat the chocolate so, wen he taking bath i said i go out buy stuff... then wen he said he come.. i put the card and chocolate in the fridge..whahaha!!! i cant deny i really so creative!! whahaha!! then wen he arrive.. he coming in my room.. wow!! i back face to him.. he at behind me and suddenly he said "happy valentine's day" then he taking out a "lazo diamond box" and open it.. my god!! is a heart shape necklace.. love it!! this is the 1st time i got a necklace frm lazo diamond company u knw.. i really din expect he got buy a necklace to me.. i tot v go ipoh to have dinner at nite and walk oni.. hehe...then after he give the gift to me.. i cheat him and asked him to go fridge take the milk to me which place at the door side put eggs.. haha!! u get trap!! he still blur blur ask me at the place put eggs got milk?" haha!! actually outside the envelope i already stick a piece of paper wrote "yes, this is wat u nit to take" so funny la dear !! then he come in my room i kept laugh... whahahaha!! so creative rite?? hehe!! bleh!!
then wait til 5pm, i go take my bath and after tat he go home change his cloth.. darling, i want to say... u really very handsome ~~ muack!! then v go ipoh at 6pm..
well, the 1st place he took me was some where around ipoh garden... "kafe the point". wen i go in the environment full with blue lights.. then v order our set dinner.. hmm.. i duno wat my set dinner name call, coz kuoky order for me geh..so nice the food.. so full.. really so full.. got cake as dessert.. tat's the type of cake i like.. hehe...
After dinner, v went to Jusco to have walk.. saw alot ppl.. hehe.. the silly kuoky kept ask me to buy something... he said muz go home at least 1 thing in my hand.. seriously i got ntg to buy la~haha..so, i din buy anything... then walk and walk.. plan to watch movie.. but all full.. sigh.. then walk again.. finaly we go bak kampar at 10.30.. then v went to VCD shop to buy VCD then invite Dev them to supper at ghany.. crap and crap.. laugh and laugh.. found tat Dev really so humour.. his action and toking.. sure bring hapiness to us.. haha.. then my valentine's day end with meaningful....
Dear darling, i really so happy tat u creat an unforgetable valentine's day to me.. it is oso my 1st time to celebrate with my love 1. i m so touch and feel very fortune to have u as my bf... sayang me alwis... u really so sayang me... thanks~~ i hope every year v oso can celebrate together and not oni today.. but celebrate until v no tooth.. lastly, love u dear~

i am my own brand

tmr quiz.. i still dunno writing blog.. so tired.. tired with my assignments.. alot.. alot.. mountain.. sigh.. learn a lesson tat so precious in this few days.. dunno how to say my feeling.. hard to say... knw tat wat i said b4 is very correct.. a person pretty doesnt measure in outlook instead the inner beauty.. now i knw, juz be tough in own stand finaly god will knw wat v done and give rewards to us.. so nonit jeolous others got pretty or not, wealth or not, wear branded garments or not.. wen there is the time to come .. nonit act.. the status u hav in the social prove tat the branded v wearing .and v r the own branded of ourselves.. i alwis wonder y is it many ppl like to wear branded , act noble.. noble or not a person is.. others will look in to their eyes.. even juz the way v tok.. they oso understd wat status v hav in the social.. who not love branded garment or shoes? i not buy now doesnt means i not match with it.. is i understd in the status i hav now there is still got a wide space for me to hav it in the future.. and now, all i hav, all i want oso given by my parents.. wat to proud of?? i rather choose tat i got the real status to satisfy myself with all my efford by doing rational.. tinking rational.. now.. so wat is tat?? study la!!

my personality is my own brand.. and now i nonit pay big amount of money to promote my advertisement.. coz i represent my own brand.. everyday , every where i go i m promoting myself by not using my mouth , my strategies yet is looking into ur eyes... our knowledge , our rational tinking r alwis showing our status in the social... so wat r u waiting for ? show me ur status.. go study la~~ hahaha~~

luv,
mary

wen gal say and do these to u..

To: all the GUYS,

wen gal said no
means really no.

wen gal said dun want,
means want.

wen gal said want,
means REALLY WANT.

wen gal said dun waste money,
actually she hope to hav it.

wen gal said hope to hav it in front of u,
means she hope u r the 1 who can give.

wen gal willing to let u hold her hand,
means she fall in love on u d.

wen gal let u hug her waist ,
coz she not sked gu jit and she trust ur personality.

wen gal kiss ur lips,
means she is showing her love to u and mad at u too stupid dunno act 1st.

wen gal said i love u,
means she really love u deeply.

wen gal said dun like it,
means she really dun like it.

wen gal cry and she told u,
means she hope u can spend more time to care her.

wen gal cried secretly,
actualy she hope there is ur shoulder to lie on.

wen gal happy ,
means she happy to be with u.

wen gal deh u,
means she want u manja her more and hope u love her more in the future.

wen gal willing honest to u even other woo her,
actually she juz want u concern her life but she really love u so much coz she honest to u.

wen gal got a short period very bad temper,
pls forgive her, coz this is symptom pra haid tat hormone changes in biological in her body. and next week will be very tired becoz having period. bleh~

wen gal notty,
actually she creat a smile on guy's face rite? so? let's sayang her~

wen gal start to dependent on u,
actually she hope u can protect her and prove tat u already protecting her..

wen gal said I WILL for wat u will asking in the future.
she will be the 1 saying I DO for the life commitment WEN BOTH OF U in CHURCH.

guy, do u tink gal hard to understd?? no, actually all gals will easily be urs if u spend more time to understd them.. hey, they r very cute in the world u knw?? hahahahahah~~~

love,
GAL in the world

poor stage--sunday

today i woke up 12pm .. coz yesterday was insomia... mayb the light cause me cant sleep... then a call from love 1.. said he had help me print the ptptn form.. really thanks alot... then went out buy my rice..... i plan to myself lunch muz eat rice.. then doing ntg. i type the pengajian Malaysia assingnment.. finish.... then juznw chat with kouky... so tired but still wish to chat with him in Msn since he is in KL .. and now he is eating japanese food. and me, eating maggie...... so in order to make myself feel full i go took a small pack 3 in 1 milo. coz yesterday i found tat juz eat maggie really will hungry at nite.. then i found out the milo... it was expired.. but i still got alot.. sigh last year bought till now oni drink . but wen u want it already expired... nvm i still pour in my cup.. coz according to my science analysis.. milo already dehyrated.. so expired nvm la... and i really drink in my stomach... not bad, still the same flavour.. wahahhaahaha... bad or not tonite will knw.....
i tinking y recently everything goes to me so bad.... i want go home. but my sis not allow.. i juz hope to go home take my shirt.... so tat my mum wont worry. change the shirt already took for pray.... and i oso knw tat if i not go home this week.. the following week i really hard to go hometown.. coz assignment...
AND i want borrow book. the suck libralian kept show bad face to me....cause me i tried many times to borrow the book i want finaly whole week still failed... hey,is u is wana fuck u!!!!!!! u kacau me whole week d... u suffer me whole week d.. finaly the book i want no more d... hate u!!!!!!!!!!!!
ptptn faster approve my application ... i suffer so much.... sigh, if like this i rather dun buy tat PR book early la.. c now.. suffer myself.... RM73 suck my 1/5 of blood d.... then rental .. sigh.... juz ask for money frm mum b4 come bak oni .. how i dare to demand again wor.. if demand.. my sis sure strike with her symtome... which is scold me..... open mouth juz scold lo......... nah, eat maggie dun scold me ar... wat to do wor.... student life ma...

for ur information : today i spend RM3.40 oni... hehe... ( siew yuk cha siew rice oni). hahahaha... save leh? maggie best!! bleh~~

有用的人

谁不希望自己是聪明的人
谁不希望什么都能一百分
谁能希望自己又呆又傻又愚蠢
谁会愿意听到你真的好笨

有些事情就是这样的残忍
有些道路没有直通那扇门
有些游戏结果不一定要获胜
有些收获不在终点只在过程

我们不会心灰意冷
我们会给自己掌声
我不是你想象的笨
我也有我自己的门
其实你不是不能
只是你肯不肯
给自己多一个机会
因为我们都是有用的人

有些事情就是这样的残忍
有些道路没有直通那扇门
有些游戏结果不一定要获胜
有些收获不在终点只在过程

我们不会心灰意冷
我们会给自己掌声
我不是你想象的笨
我也有我自己的门
其实你不是不能
只是你肯不肯
给自己多一个机会
因为我们都是有用的人

我们不会心灰意冷
我们会给自己掌声
我不是你想象的笨
我也有我自己的门
其实你不是不能
只是你肯不肯
给自己多一个机会
因为我们都是有用的人
给自己多一个机会
因为我们都是有用的人

远走高飞

远走高飞 — 李圣杰


远走高飞
作词：蔡伯南
作曲：蔡伯南

爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话
像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择长醉
繁星守候月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫作幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非

重新再出发
能不能让这天地不再嘈杂
我的心里面
安静得不像话
故事的真假
没有多余的力气去分辨它
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择长醉
繁星守候月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫作幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非

带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择长醉
繁星守候月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫作幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非

带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择长醉
繁星守候月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫作幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非

命运的安排，我曾失败。

这是什么安排？
磨练我的心智

这是什么安排？
要我学会自立

这是什么安排？
培训我的毅力

这是什么安排？
考我的耐力

这是什么安排？
学会自律

这是什么安排？
懂得面对

这是什么安排？
从新找回自信

这是什么安排？
做人要有勇气

这是什么安排？
不再看不起自己

这是什么安排？？？？？？？？？

这是上天给我的考验，因为这是我的成长旅途。。。
伟人的成功也就是从此潇洒地失败过。。。
失败就是让彷徨的我更能越战越勇。


压力的我上

writing blog in class, i am so piss off!!!

.. hey frens, i so piss off the lecturer now in my electronic publishing class.... she want us to do assignment by using microsolf front page.. but, she dun even start her practical.. juz enter the class and give alot time for us to do the tutorial.. then after tell the answer want us to copy alot and alot. i so piss off now.. y the uni waste money to hired such lecturer... lazy!!
c !! c!!!! said finished? finish?? walao, i shud bless tat i got ntg to do in class or not?
ladies and gentelmen,
i havent apply my ptptn leh, i so frustrated.... this affair really zapped my energry d.. y i started in a new year there will be alot ting tat not smooth occur in me? 1st. my sis KWSP change to pencen, now i dun even confirm can write or not.. and yesterday OOI YI said to me the penjamin is auto paste by the computer according to the penjaga. but the problem for me is my penjaga is my sis and mum oni. but, the penjamin can oni dad and mum. the stupid computer will paste my sis profile in penjamin... how!!?? u said la... y i prepared alot still got many ma fan...?? y?? is totaly wat v learn "on stage few minutes work, down the stage few years work".... stupid goverment hired a stupid programmer... y dun v do thing by "black and white"??? i realy so tired.... i really so lost......... i so stress.... my stress is oni will lost after i get my ptptn ........
kouky, i knw u helping me to do alot d.... but... this thing is nit me to face myself.... u juz be with wen i nit, or not even saying anything, i already can feel ur support and sayang d... thanks....

tagged by kouky

a1. The person who tag
kouky

2. Your relationship with her/him is?
lover

3. Your five impression of her/him?
notty
understanding
lazy
caring
ham sub (wahahahaha~!!! bleh~)

4. The most memorable thing she/he had done to u.
when he write his blog about i'm his missing puzzle.

5. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you?
i love u until my last breath in my life

6. If she/he become your lover you will?
is present tense la.

7. If she/he become your lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be?
work hard in study and wont smoke AT ALL!!!

8. If she/he become your enemy, you will?
think this wont b happen la.

9. If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be?
he break with me becoz he fall to others.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is?
let him feel happy and fortunate to b with me.

11. Your overall impression of her/him is?
not bad not bad, so far so gud~muack!!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
innocent(dan cun) yet notty

13. The characters you love of yourself are ....
humourous

14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?
no confident

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
myself is better coz every1 is special

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them...
thank for walk in my world~

17. Tag 10 other people that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. kouky Tee
2. zi ying
3.marcus
4. ken
5. shorty
6. wen jye
7.Venz
8. Dev
9. EVin
10.Loo

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Lol i forgot her name...

19. Is no.9 is a male or female?
when pee different with guy then u tink leh?

20. If number 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
they dunno each other.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
Psychology

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
yesterday

23. What kind of music does no. 8 like?
With nice bass... Trance...

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
yes,1bro and 2 sisters

25. Will you woo no.3?
wah, gan zeong lo then.hehe..

26. How about number 7?
wont happen lo, i treat him like my little broher wor

27. Is no. 4 single?
yes, very available

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Koo

29. What’s the hobby of no.10?
eat and tease me

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well ?
ya

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
UTAR KAMPAR

32. Talk something casually about no.1?
sayang me more u will live easily. whahahah!!

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
never lo. but he got mature tinking tat i appreciate lo.

34. Where does no.9 live at?
ipoh liang zai , liang lui duo ma~

35. What colour does no.4 like?
dunno wor...

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
ya la, they like teasing each other ma..

37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
who knw?

38. What is no.6 doing now?
eating gua, coz now is 1.10pm lo...

stress...

suppose i am writing for my communicative english assignment but i am so stress. so lost.. recently i feel so stress....the assignment, the ptptn stuffs, verify the certs... all those things really make me cant breath.... even the CNY, i tot i already settle , and prepared all the stuffs the government nit.. but, my sis told me she already change the KWSP to pencen... and she done it b4 CNY. now, i stuck in the middle of the road... i dunno which to fill in my form... u knw how stress of me or not if u live in a happy family suddenly become the single family.. imagine if i cant get full loan... wat going to happen... i knw, i knw my 2nd aunt will support me 100% not oni in spirit but oso financial problem.. but i really do not hope tat she help me alot.. i hope wat i use is wat i shud pay bak... tats my affair.. i do not hope i grow til now still needed ppl help... and becoz of dad went to pure land... the way to fill up in the ptptn form oso different... i not dare to take the risk , so i read again and again the guideline to fill the form many times, listed out all my questions and asked the staff... u knw... how i hate the rules changed suddenly.. y suddenly change to online apply?? once click wrong... my fund oso gone..... u knw GONE??? is my study, my ambition, my parent's life easily oso follow gone!!! then the assignment due date... y v want sweet 1st, suffer later???? this is the stupid choice.... now all the replacement class come along d.. got time to do assignment meh???? u knw how stress is me or not? y the staff want fixed a time to verify the cert??? y they dun verify wen v free to meet them?? if tat moment all oso doing the same thing.... do u knw how suffer v r??? v nit to spend time to line up and verify. u knw how is the problems come to us or not????!!! stupid staff!!! stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y all happen to me is stupid !!!!!? u knw stupid????????????????? STUPID STRESS, or i shud said... i'm the 1 stupid.... coz i dunno how to cope my stress now... sigh....................................