tell me wat u like on me..?!

wen i was in form 4 and 5 , i alwis teased by my best frens said apple fat... in tat moment i sured debate with them, i waiting the ppl who appreciate my inner beauty.. yet. actually my heart is still feel shame... but... become fat is easier.. become thin is hard.. becoz nit a great will power.. then i become no confident on myself...
i alwis tok to myself .. apple, 1 day later sure will hav the ppl who admired the real of ur heart.. ur inner beauty... then wait and wait... time is coming... this little fat and plump plump gal really got ppl found her inner beauty.. of coz i happy tat they r appreciate the real of me.. yet i so scared..i scared wat they really want on this little plump gal... to satisfied their desired from a plump gal or is it true tat i got a gud personality oni famous among the guys?? so i give very high self protection to myself.. thru an affair.. i found tat actually no matter how playful a guy is or hau fa fa is.. they still hope to buy a real insurance in their love life.. they will oso scared to find a pretty gf .. they still hope to find a gal got gud personality...
i dunno how to said my feeling now.. but i still will looking down myself.. coz i got plump plump body..... i see alot pretty gals in my campus.. this is make me more shame tat i'm not pretty enuf..frens, shud i decorate myself like bird?? or the now of me is more than enuf...?? leave me a comment pls...

by no confident gal,
APPLE