is it the reason which is last paper??

i really blur now.. i plan to study now.. yet.. i writing my blog... today i slept until evening... but.. i still so blur now... i feel like not dare to study in the mid nite... the room is hot... i open the side window.. my table exactly opposite the other row of room.. so dark.. i afraid to look at there.. seeing my shwdow blurry.. now i understand.. i shud appreciate the nite with u... then i not afraid to study at mid nite... now.. alot ppl going back becoz they have finished final.. luckily the rrom beside me end exam with in the same day.. the house not noisy like before... i so afraid.. i knw i have too depending on u d.. got insects, u there.. got shocked , u there.. my god... shud i sing "without u " this song??? whahaha!!!.. i start dizzy d... see.. the day without u i cant stand long during mid nite... how fortune i got u wen i study until mid nite and there is a person deliver supper to me... get stress go yum cha with me.. although this subject no essay.. but juznow i saw is alot to memorize... dunno wat i aim can achieve or not.. i think this subject really the strong subject to pull up my CGPA... PR , after i recall back... i realized i did miss alot mark.... haiz... not much expectation on it , just hope that it could pass then is enuf... and PM... walao eh!! now start to sked d... dunno y.. this sem i started to put high expectation on my CGPA... is it called i have been mature?? no, its juz that i feel if i din get the expectation means i'm weak... its is a must.. and at this level v shud get 3.0 above... 2nd class honour... is juz 3.0 ...i wonder y foundation i couldnt get it.. it is so normal.. y shud proud off?? get 1st class honour then oni consider geng!!. is this level now v hav already how far v can reach oni?? no... its not... v can do it better... even more than that .... aim high.. get high.. although i used to say
"no dream is too high, no journey is too far"... this phare is for those who alwis dream so high then oni can use... so that they wont stress themselve.. but .. do i ???
now i knw y this phare coming out from a doctor's mouth... coz they alwis dream too high..