i feel like cant let go~

it been a time i interned in my company... sometimes i feel helpless when face problem. but after some days with them. we have bond the relationship with all my colleague.and now i dont feel like leaving this company. they are too nice and funny. i like the work with no stress given by boss. they are so humorous. and i understand once i go back to my uni i need to face a lot of problem in my study. the final sem in my life.. i am so scare.... the more u close to the journey of working life , the more i feel helpless... i dont know where should i walk.... wish to success in my field, but i cant leave my mum.... i totally understand family need me.... mum need me.... sigh..... eventually my dream perhaps not really can come true... anyways, no matter how my path is i will still work for my best to be the best daughter as my belated dad thought.

Trinity staffs, may our path meet again. i'm gonna miss u all so much~~~ muack~!

Apple~~

y am i alwis met troublesome ppl

Time flies, i have do internship in week 8 ald. sometimes, i feel very angry , sometimes, i feel happy. but i dont know y i can be being bully like this. the stress is not coming form my boss or top yet is coming for the trainee itself.. sigh.... i wonder y re they can be so thick face. the junior, alwis like play tai ji. never take a initiative to move. again and again, using some words which can push the job to me. i oso dont know y i again and again being bully. whenever only 1 proposal to complete. i alwis the 1 who do the proposal. y???!!! only when got 3 they only can do the slide. i hate this. i hate !!!!!!!! i hate work with such a lazy gang!.

again, come to fyp, dont what the hell are they. selfish number 1!! just think about themselves. travelling, play, dating. come on, dont know who put the group name as 爱情不必它重要. i totally want vomit when they cant do that. now, the whole fyp got problem we are so much left out still not care that like. later when intern said go travelling again then dont want just 1 day meeting i will piss off. go look others group. how they care their fyp. this is not assignment .and i will said if u all makes my fyp marks low, i will definitely hate u the entire life. u have my words. dont said i give stress, the problem is u all dont even feel got problem. the attitude, the behaviour... my god!! y alwis let me met such bunch of troublesome ppl. yor! go self examination which is more important la. and the 1 think u are alwis correct go to hell la. not everyone like ur straight 1. something u think is ok.but to others is not ok wan. y intern din train u wan. wat a waste u pay for it. diu!

helpless Apple.

unhappy reward to myself

i have received my result ytd. i am very happy to know i din fail any subject and i got A- in the subject which is tough... but at nite i show to my sis , she din appreciate my efford and the first thing she see is the D. what subject is this??? today the funny is a small matter can link to argue.. i really so tiring to perform at home... everyday i do my best to do house chores... how can i do all thing in 1 day.. i mop everything. then din cook she demand home cooking... i cook i cant do the rest until she finished work when i started to rest u saw i sit down and show me black face... i really so tiring.. everyday i try my best to reduce the burden.... i do i dont say anything... but did u appreciate..??? u demand more and more higher. and i HATE u so much. since the day i start my uni life every sem break u sure make my holiday worst if not u sure want scold me before the new semester start!!. i try my best to do house chores u not satisfy? if not what u did? din show responsible to what u have use lo. in ur perception my holiday must do house chores !!! i did!!! but what u do??!!! ur perception now is if i help u clean the stuff u used then i consider good??? i did my job??!!! bullshit.. u makes me so angry.. i totally see u din appreciate my hardwork.. then what for i still want make it?? i do just to reduce argue. just simple word then u purposely start argue , ya u are alwis right!! coz u go earn money u alwis right !!! i tell u , pls be appreciate u are using a metal bowl to eat rice. u havent see my job doesnt mean u sacrifice the most!!! i am sick, but i still wake up to clean house!! u keep fit so??? do house chores can help sweat!!! marry soon so big??? let's do together. dont selfish!!! since u start dating u have been being more and more irrational, i really felt is ur bf bring this suffer to me!! coz he manja u!!! and the most i hate is u argue alwis talk about my past my failure. i tell u I NO LONGER THE 1 WHO IS WEAK, COZ I FELL DOWN FROM FAILURE AND I WALK TOUGH AND MAKE MY RESULT KEEP IMPROVE ALTHOUGH IT IS SLOW, but i can say since i fell down the GPA is the best compare with the before i failed please open ur eyes and see i am a girl who is tough!! NOT U ONLY!!! and u !! stop using own perception to think whatever u do is correct!!!! u think is correct!! u are the eldest is correct!! think !!!!

angry apple!

nervous holiday

its been some times i din update my blog d...i wish i can post something more positive yet i still cant deny this feeling... i really so scare me result.... especially my media ethic..... everyday, every moment my eyes jumping makes me feel uncomfortable... and this week result will be release... i cant take it if i fail again.... this time no longer like previous ... sister gonna marry soon. if i fail... financial burden sure increase... and i have to extend 1 more semester. i really really really hope dad u can bless me this time..... if i fail i really cant take it... i had took 1 year time to compensated the subject i failed before d.... please.... bless me..... i hope next blog i post will be a good news ....

BLESS me please~~~~~~~

nervous Apple

Good start should have an good ending

hi, i cant imagine i have safe to survive till now.. but i do appreciate in the path i have been thru.. i realize actually i'm really a lucky girl who alwis got "someone" to help when i facing problem.. maybe unintentionally i involved in the lucky one.. since the sem i drop my result.. i do really give my effort in my studies. although it might not good compare with others yet i think i have gave my efforts. becoz the GPA was the highest that i ever achieved compare with my previous result . i know i still need much efforts.. but i'm telling myself that i wont give up.. since there are a lot of chances has been provided to me.. i will strive my all.. i really hope i can handle my studies as i need to do a lot of stuffs this semester.. hopefully my efforts will be pay back to me.. One thing i really scare which is my internship boss might look for my previous result.. if good or lucky enough , hope i'll meet a good boss and interview one time then straight away hire me.. of course i do hope all the path i going to go thru this year can smoothly till the end.. then meet u all in convocation~ hi friends, believe yourself.. The ability of a person can be very strong , it is because our willpower control our mind. let's work hard together and..

" There is nothing that cannot be done in the world."

Good Luck

love,

Lucky Apple